Impression

God damn it... Right now I am listening to batman soundtrack and somehow it makes me wanna think about something great, something big and deep. It's like turning my deep thinking side on. And I feel like I want to post something short, but very deep, like something that wise people say... But it looks like I can't. And even if I could, I have a feeling that nobody would be interested, that everybody would be like "that dude is trying to write something wise. What a looser!" And then I would be ashamed of myself. But if you think about it, haven't you ever felt like you have a feelings so strong in you that you just can't keep them to yourself. You just want them out and impress other people. Not to write for your own self, but to impress others, to let them know that you aren't just somebody. That people would recognize your deepness and mind. After all, it's all about respect and recognition. Clothes, looks, knowledge - it is all, to trick people into thinking that you not just somebody, but you are living and thinking. Of course some people do thing for themselves and some do, not for the recognition, but for others good. Like an altruistic hero, trying to help others. Like Batman. But he is fictional, so that doesn't really matter. Yet, I would love to believe that there are people that doesn't want any recognition, but just do good things. Fuck... while talking about impressing other people and wanting a recognition, I myself think to myself that how great it would be, if people would actually read this and think. Probably won't happen, but I always can hope. Besides if everybody does that, then probably it is normal, right? Although everybody does the impressing thing their own way. It is weird, how nowadays, people see beauty more interesting than mind. How all pretty teens are very popular and these, who are not that pretty, but instead have knowledge are someone to bully and laugh at. Wonder where does that come? Maybe jealousy? No, don't think so... Raising own ego? Sounds somewhat better, but still, it does not justify it. Maybe it is just me, but I need a clear reason for someone to do something. I just don't want to believe, that some one would do harm just for shits and giggles. Usually when people say that they don't know, why they did something, they were under emotional control, I guess. Emotions... Without them, life would be so easier, but yet, much more gray... Although, we wouldn't know whether it would be gray or not, because it's the emotions that puts colors to our world... Man, I went of the tracks... But guess I got of from my chest and now I will be able to think about more important things. And for now, let this just be here. Sorry if the text was too complex, I just felt like saying all this.

-Mikael

Been a while and that kind of stuff

So it has been a while, when I last wrote anything here and last post was shit after all. So a little update about my doings. I have a kind of a big project coming that I am little by little doing now. Since I am having matriculation exam on next week, I don't really have any time for other things, but as soon as this period is over I am going to concentrate on that project. So the thing I am working on is about 20 minutes long story split into 3 to 5 songs, each with different feeling to them. Right now I am gathering the band and writing some lyrics. I have already drummer, guitarist and me on bass, but I am still seeking someone to sing and either a person for keyboard or for second guitar, although it would be good to have them both. If you want to participate in this project and live in Klaukkala - you can comment freely.
   I don't really have the full picture in my head what it's going to be, but I think that I want a dark story of apocalypse or something about a couple, who try to save themselves, but the end is not going to be happy, at least that is what I think for now. I have had this kind of idea for long, but I think now is the time that I can do it. It all started about a year ago, when I was thinking about movies and that they always have happy end, which kind of is starting to get really annoying. So I though that it would be awesome to write an album about end of the world, put it in grimmest colors and make everybody die. Because lets get serious, if a meteorite will hit the earth, everybody is going to die, one way or another. Nonetheless that was my first though. Now I am having motivations from Edge of Sanity song Crimson, which is 40 minute long song that is epic story about last child born on the earth. It made a huge impression on me and I want to kind of borrow some ideas from them. And then doom metal album One Last Smoke by 11th Hour. It's about a man who because of too much smoking had lung cancer and at the end of the album he died. If you really are into doom, then that record is seriously very touching. It is sad and epic at the same time, especially when the man dies at the end. So basically these 2 albums are my motivations. My aim is to have my story sound as epic and sad as are these albums.
   I probably am going to present at least a part of this story at a school concert 5.2. in my lyceum. So if you are interested, you are welcome to come and listen to my song. I don't really know yet, will it be free of charge or will you have to pay at the doors, but I will tell about that closer to the happening. But if you wont come to the concert, I will probably post the whole thing in YouTube, so you wont miss anything. But yeah, I think for know, that is it and I will try to remember to put all the updates about the album here and so.

Mikael

SEXAI GURL IN DA NEIGHBOURHOOD!!

So today I was reading my email and checked the junk and found a message from facebook and it was from some kind of girl (judging by headline) and I decided to read it, why the hell not? So this is what there was. I laughet my ass off with this.

"BABE... i guess your not getting any of my email huh? ive beentryign to email u so many times but this dam laptop is such a piece ofgarbage and keeps freezing.. anyways how u been? 

In case u dont know who this is its ME Adriana.. we used to chat a bit on facebook and then I think u deleted me :( haha.. anyways guess what... I got 2 things to tell u.. both good news.. 1) im single now.. yup me and my bf broke up about 3 months ago... and 2) guess where im moving? RIGHT EFFING NEAR U.. lol... ur actually the only person im gonna know there.. well 3 cousins too but i cant chill with them lol..

I remember when we chatted u told me u thought i was cute and u wanted to chill so now we finally can HAHA! im kinda scared to move.. im hoping this email addy is still the one you use and u can chat with me ebfore i get there.. maybe even help me move my shit in...are u still on facebook? i cudnt find ui was soo confused...anyways im gonna need someone to show me the town and take me out so u better be around bebe...

we only chatted a couple times but i remember thinking to myself i wanted to get ot know u better when i was single..a nd i thoguth u were cute too but cudnt tell u cause i wasnt single lol...ok so more info about me.. well im 23.. virgo.. love the outdoors and love to socialize, go out fordrinks, restaurants, movies etc.. travel.. i have a lil kitty namedBOO and i luv her to death... uhhh oh im a super horny gurl too butevery gurl is they just wont admit it. so ilove watching p0rn and allthat.. love sex etc blah blah blah...who doesnt..

I really hope we get a chance to chat for a bit either online or on the fone before i get there enxt week.. i hope u remmeber me and still wanna chill and arent married yet lol.. OH YA also.. i need to find a job when i get there..

do u have any hookups or know anybody hiring? id LOVE to work in a baror osmehting like that...really anythgin cause my current job is funand all.. and technically i CUD keep doign it but i want a change.. icurrently work from home and well thats cool but i need ot be outmeeting people.. oh wait. i dont think i ever actually told u what idid? hmm shud i......???? ok WELLLL... and dont get all weirded outon me.. i work on a webcam chat community site and i get paid to chatwith people and get naked HHAHA... BOMB right :)? I KNOW.. like ifigure iim horny anyways why not get paid to chat with people and playwith myself heheh...anyways i hope u dont look down on that and NOTHATS NOT WHY IM CONTACTING U RELAX URSELF lol... i actually need helponce i move and i remembered u live there so im reaching out....like isaid before this computer is a complete piece of CRAP and freezes NONSTOP.. ive tried ot send this email to u maybe 3 times already and imhopign this time i can hit SEND before i run into trouble lol..

ANYWAYS.. heres the deal....every month natalie (my boss) gives eachof us 3 VIP codes to give out to whoever we want.. so with this code ucan lgoin to watch me at work for free and dont have to pay likeeveryone else... the only way i can give u one of the codes (so we canchat) is if you absolutey DO NOT give it out to anyone else and u ONLYUSE IT FOR URSELF... i only get 3 a month and she gets pissed if morethan 3 people use them so DONT SHARE IT MISTER... i figured u cudalways email me back instead but my email account doesnt even let melogin half the time.. so the bets palce ot chat me is my chat room...

if theres anyone else logged in when u sign in ill boot them out.. butremember DONT SHARE THIS PASSWORD PLEASE BABE IM BEGGING U.. I TRUSTU... im online most of the day now to try and save money for my move..also since im in such a huge debt already form my student loan :( Ireally thingk we need to chat before i get there and make sure u evernremember me hahha.. anyways ive rambled on and on now and ur probablysoooo annnoyed with me so ill stop now.. im gonna go start work.. ireally hope u come chat me. it wud make my day and releive a lot of mystress about the move... REALLY i mean that....anyways once i see u ininsdie ill shoot u myc ell number and u can gimme yours.. if u dont

wanna come chat i understand but its really the only palce to find menow days.. if u email me abck ill probably get it once i get thereafter my internet is setup so about 2-3 weeks fomr now.. but im hopignto see u in my chat room.. rmemeber its 100% free with this code imgonna give u.. just DONT GIVE IT OUT OR ILL KICK U IN THE BALLSINSTEAD OF LICK U IN THE BALLS WHEN IS EE U hahahahha...k babe im outfor now... chat ya soon.. kisses xoxo Adriana" 

 And here should be a link to some site, but obviously I won't post it. Actually this was kind of good letter if I only knew who the hell is Adriana and I would be single myself, but yet that is not the case, so it failed for the sender. But to be honest, I doubt that I would've got along with a person who has SO MUCH SPELLING PROBLEMS. Not really looking for sex with a dumb, excuse me, really dumb girl even if it would good.
    So yeah, nothing much, just wanted to share funny letter that I got. And that's all, thanks!

O MI FUKIN GOAT! NEW BASS AMP!

So today I was in Moscow (and by that I mean center) and bought myself a shiny new bass amp. Before I tell you more about the amp itself, I will tell you briefly about what happened to me today before I got the fucking amp. (If you are not interested in my sufferings, skip to the 3rd paragraph) Let's begin with how I slept. So I slept like from 4 to 5 hours, because a song "Fuck her gently" by Tenacious D got stuck in my head and I imagined how I would've performed it in front of the school after what everybody would be like "HAY DUUD, YUO AR SO AWSIM!! LIEK SRSLY!". (I know, I have problems with self-esteem). Then I finally fell asleep, but then at 8am I forced myself to get up and go to shower, although I had to go the other evening, but guess what, I forgot about it, because of the game, that consumes time like hell!
   On the way to the Moscow with my mom and granny my stomach started to hurt like bitch and I got a little bit dizzy because of the traffic jam. In addition to that the car that we use in Russia is Lada and air conditioning doesn't fucking work at all and when sun shines our car turns into a sauna on wheels. Then we passed the music shop where we were supposed to buy the amp and thought to buy it right away and then just forget about it, but unfortunately the shop started its work only at 11am and we came there at 10:30 am. Awesome timing, khehehe! Then we just went to do some work that we needed to do and sometime around 1pm I got hungry, but fortunately the work that my parents needed to do was done pretty fast and then we finally got to the shop. Aaaaand I bought that shiny amp.
   So now I will tell you about the amp a little bit (If not interested, skip this paragraph). As I said, it is a Warwick bass combo BC20 and it is 20 watt power amp that has basic three equalizer controls. In addition to that it has passive and active inputs, which is good for me because I have active bass. But probably the best part about this amp to me is, that you can plug headphones to it without any adapters and also you can plug your mp3 or Ipod to it, so that is will be like a huge ass.... amplifier? Dunno really the right word for it, but hopefully you get it.

Better pic of the panel.

   So basically this is what happened today with me and starting tomorrow I am going to start do more physical exercises to get a fit ass. Especially now that I invented (kinda) new way to play ping-pong, I will be like Arnie in no time! More about that in next post, but for now, I am out.

Theenks for reeading!

P.S. Forgot to say, now that I have better amp, I am one step closer to start doing covers. Now the last thing that needed is a better camera with a proper video quality. But I guess I will have it sometime soon and you will have coulpe of nice cover song played by Me, the Great Sexyness!

A song for a hot and yet lonely summer day.

Fcuk me, I am in Russia!

Being Russian is not easy.

You have to drink vodka all the time, travel on a bear and wear ushanka all the time. Otherwise you will die. Yup. You probably think how am I still alive, but that is Russian secret, so I am not able to tell you that. And to be true, I am not really even sure, what is that secret... But anywhore! Here I am now, in about 30 kilometers from center of Moscow at my summerhouse. I have been here every summer I have lived and I think I can't be without it. It's just like that something calls me back here. Even though I know Russia is pretty much a messed up country, but still I want to get back here every once in a while. And the weirdest part of this is that I always get depressed here and am bored as fuck. I have like one friend here with whom I spend most of my time here and we do pretty much nothing. And the Internet here is pretty shitty and sometimes just doesn't want to work on the most important moment (IE. when watching po... pony! my little pony!), but still I love this place. It's just so quiet and peaceful. This is just the place I can relax from city and well, pretty much everybody. Besides, I can do some sports here and maybe finally get fit ass so that girls would droll after seeing it. Naah, just kidding, I just want to get in a better shape for myself.
   Besides this time around I really have a work to do or not really work, but I have to read for exams that I will have in September. I am going to write history and Russian and I think Russian shouldn't be a problem, but for history I have to read a lot. I have like 5 books of history and when school starts, I will have 3 courses of history. I really hope it will go alright. In addition to that I have 2 Carl Jung book and a book that is called: "How to make yourself a master thinker". I have read the beginning and I liked it. There is philosophical and psychological thoughts which interests me the most. So I have a lot things to read.
   Also I got a new game Age of Wonders which is a pretty old game, but so fucking awesome. It's a turn based strategy based upon magic and Middle Ages. The game makes just always makes my ass rip apart to little pieces, because most of the time you have to think in it, but sometimes, I skip the thinking part and get killed. But I still love that game!
   So that's the brief story about how I am going to spent my summer here and... yeah... Back to Finland probably August 11. and then to back to school. So yeah, that's it for this time. Thanks for reading!

Blurp.

P.S. That's how we roll in Russia!