Impression

God damn it... Right now I am listening to batman soundtrack and somehow it makes me wanna think about something great, something big and deep. It's like turning my deep thinking side on. And I feel like I want to post something short, but very deep, like something that wise people say... But it looks like I can't. And even if I could, I have a feeling that nobody would be interested, that everybody would be like "that dude is trying to write something wise. What a looser!" And then I would be ashamed of myself. But if you think about it, haven't you ever felt like you have a feelings so strong in you that you just can't keep them to yourself. You just want them out and impress other people. Not to write for your own self, but to impress others, to let them know that you aren't just somebody. That people would recognize your deepness and mind. After all, it's all about respect and recognition. Clothes, looks, knowledge - it is all, to trick people into thinking that you not just somebody, but you are living and thinking. Of course some people do thing for themselves and some do, not for the recognition, but for others good. Like an altruistic hero, trying to help others. Like Batman. But he is fictional, so that doesn't really matter. Yet, I would love to believe that there are people that doesn't want any recognition, but just do good things. Fuck... while talking about impressing other people and wanting a recognition, I myself think to myself that how great it would be, if people would actually read this and think. Probably won't happen, but I always can hope. Besides if everybody does that, then probably it is normal, right? Although everybody does the impressing thing their own way. It is weird, how nowadays, people see beauty more interesting than mind. How all pretty teens are very popular and these, who are not that pretty, but instead have knowledge are someone to bully and laugh at. Wonder where does that come? Maybe jealousy? No, don't think so... Raising own ego? Sounds somewhat better, but still, it does not justify it. Maybe it is just me, but I need a clear reason for someone to do something. I just don't want to believe, that some one would do harm just for shits and giggles. Usually when people say that they don't know, why they did something, they were under emotional control, I guess. Emotions... Without them, life would be so easier, but yet, much more gray... Although, we wouldn't know whether it would be gray or not, because it's the emotions that puts colors to our world... Man, I went of the tracks... But guess I got of from my chest and now I will be able to think about more important things. And for now, let this just be here. Sorry if the text was too complex, I just felt like saying all this.

-Mikael

Been a while and that kind of stuff

So it has been a while, when I last wrote anything here and last post was shit after all. So a little update about my doings. I have a kind of a big project coming that I am little by little doing now. Since I am having matriculation exam on next week, I don't really have any time for other things, but as soon as this period is over I am going to concentrate on that project. So the thing I am working on is about 20 minutes long story split into 3 to 5 songs, each with different feeling to them. Right now I am gathering the band and writing some lyrics. I have already drummer, guitarist and me on bass, but I am still seeking someone to sing and either a person for keyboard or for second guitar, although it would be good to have them both. If you want to participate in this project and live in Klaukkala - you can comment freely.
   I don't really have the full picture in my head what it's going to be, but I think that I want a dark story of apocalypse or something about a couple, who try to save themselves, but the end is not going to be happy, at least that is what I think for now. I have had this kind of idea for long, but I think now is the time that I can do it. It all started about a year ago, when I was thinking about movies and that they always have happy end, which kind of is starting to get really annoying. So I though that it would be awesome to write an album about end of the world, put it in grimmest colors and make everybody die. Because lets get serious, if a meteorite will hit the earth, everybody is going to die, one way or another. Nonetheless that was my first though. Now I am having motivations from Edge of Sanity song Crimson, which is 40 minute long song that is epic story about last child born on the earth. It made a huge impression on me and I want to kind of borrow some ideas from them. And then doom metal album One Last Smoke by 11th Hour. It's about a man who because of too much smoking had lung cancer and at the end of the album he died. If you really are into doom, then that record is seriously very touching. It is sad and epic at the same time, especially when the man dies at the end. So basically these 2 albums are my motivations. My aim is to have my story sound as epic and sad as are these albums.
   I probably am going to present at least a part of this story at a school concert 5.2. in my lyceum. So if you are interested, you are welcome to come and listen to my song. I don't really know yet, will it be free of charge or will you have to pay at the doors, but I will tell about that closer to the happening. But if you wont come to the concert, I will probably post the whole thing in YouTube, so you wont miss anything. But yeah, I think for know, that is it and I will try to remember to put all the updates about the album here and so.

Mikael