Impression

God damn it... Right now I am listening to batman soundtrack and somehow it makes me wanna think about something great, something big and deep. It's like turning my deep thinking side on. And I feel like I want to post something short, but very deep, like something that wise people say... But it looks like I can't. And even if I could, I have a feeling that nobody would be interested, that everybody would be like "that dude is trying to write something wise. What a looser!" And then I would be ashamed of myself. But if you think about it, haven't you ever felt like you have a feelings so strong in you that you just can't keep them to yourself. You just want them out and impress other people. Not to write for your own self, but to impress others, to let them know that you aren't just somebody. That people would recognize your deepness and mind. After all, it's all about respect and recognition. Clothes, looks, knowledge - it is all, to trick people into thinking that you not just somebody, but you are living and thinking. Of course some people do thing for themselves and some do, not for the recognition, but for others good. Like an altruistic hero, trying to help others. Like Batman. But he is fictional, so that doesn't really matter. Yet, I would love to believe that there are people that doesn't want any recognition, but just do good things. Fuck... while talking about impressing other people and wanting a recognition, I myself think to myself that how great it would be, if people would actually read this and think. Probably won't happen, but I always can hope. Besides if everybody does that, then probably it is normal, right? Although everybody does the impressing thing their own way. It is weird, how nowadays, people see beauty more interesting than mind. How all pretty teens are very popular and these, who are not that pretty, but instead have knowledge are someone to bully and laugh at. Wonder where does that come? Maybe jealousy? No, don't think so... Raising own ego? Sounds somewhat better, but still, it does not justify it. Maybe it is just me, but I need a clear reason for someone to do something. I just don't want to believe, that some one would do harm just for shits and giggles. Usually when people say that they don't know, why they did something, they were under emotional control, I guess. Emotions... Without them, life would be so easier, but yet, much more gray... Although, we wouldn't know whether it would be gray or not, because it's the emotions that puts colors to our world... Man, I went of the tracks... But guess I got of from my chest and now I will be able to think about more important things. And for now, let this just be here. Sorry if the text was too complex, I just felt like saying all this.

-Mikael